My babies head against me nursing. Little patchy hair. The sweet smell of milk and spit up. Oh what they don't tell you about having kids!
Everyday I tell myself I have nothing to do and nothing to accomplish except keep the kids alive :) haha...seriously tho.
I can honestly say I am not a born mother, I am uneasy being home 24/7 and must must must have something to accomplish or I feel worthless. Unfortunately our world doesn't tell you an awesome day could be holding your baby all day or a really productive one is when everyone gets fed on time. So I have been doing a little self coaching and am starting to feel better about my days one at a time.
Sure I love my days I "do a lot" but I'm wising up and realizing raising kids is a full time job and I should be happy about being home all day. Now, some may be saying "duh! I wish I could stay home!" Or saying "this chicks crazy!" But we are not all the same and were not all born wanting the same things.
I am realizing how lucky I am to see these babies grow before my eyes.
They may have 2 week nursing strikes that make me want to pull my hair out.
Or tell me "you're a turd mom!" (Yes, we are at the repeating phase)
But, slowly and surely my role as a mini van driving, soccer mom are growing on me :)
I completely understand! Sometimes I make a list of everything I did, so that I feel productive...then I realize it's laundry and dishes and I'll have to do it all again within a day or two! Haha.
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